Bad Day

Today is an astonomically bad day. There are those days where you are tired or things are just not going your way and then there are days where no matter what happens to you, you are still going to be miserable. Today is one of those days. Luckily I dont get these days that often any longer. Happily I usually waltz through life, my job, the kids, my routine. Today I cannot get out of my own way. Today I woke  up after having been awake most of the night waiting for Gary to come home from a show and resenting every second of it, tired with Jonah screaming demands at me.......... right from the get go.

Gary had a wedding to go to so for day 2 I was in charge of kids solo, with no plan, in the hottest muggiest most disgusting weather while also being on call for work. This means I can't go anywhere. Normally I would get everyone out, go to the beach, the pool, anywhere but here in this house stuck with three cranky hot kids. Not today.

Today not only the three kids fought all day. I fought with them all day. Which is not typical of us as of late. But this is just how our day went today. I got called out to see a pt and family in the afternoon which was a huge blessing and secretely I wished I would just get called out for the rest of the day too and leave the kids with my mom. I hate being like this with them.

But I am human.

I took a nap while Jonah played quietly with some new toy I had dug up while cleaning (cleaning always helps, especially when it is 100 degrees in this house). I slept so hard I did not know where I was when I woke up.

Gary didn't call me when he got to his wedding (another reason for me to resent him today) and the only thing I was really focused on today turned out to be a bomb as the Red Sox are losing miserably to the Yanks.

There is a favorite book I read to the kids sometimes called "Alexander and the very horrible terribly no good day." In the end Alexander still has a family that loves him and I am sure the next day is better than the one in the book. It is hard to believe I will move through days like today.

But I will.